~.{The Perks Of Being a Wallflower}.~

The Perks of Being a Wallflower

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LOVE

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I feel

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To : Patrick

SAM

The Beatles- Something

I just need to know that someone out there listens and understands and doesn’t try to sleep with people even if they could have. I need to know that these people exist.

1 The Smiths - Asleep 2 Ride - Vapour Trail 3 Simon & Garfunkel - Scarborough Fair 4 Procol Harum - A Whiter Shade of Pale 5 Nick Drake - Time of No Reply 6 The Beatles - Dear Prudence 7 Suzanne Vega - Gypsy 8 Moody Blues - Nights in White Satin 9 Smashing Pumpkins - Daydream 10 Genesis - Dusk 11 U2 - MLK 12 The Beatles - Blackbird 13 Fleetwood Mac - Landslide 14 The Smiths Asleep

As much as I don't understand my mom and dad and as much as i feel sorry for both of them sometimes, i can't help but love them very much.

“You see things. You keep quiet about them. And you understand.” -Patrick

I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.

I just wish that God or my parents or Sam or my sister or someone would just tell me what’s wrong with me. Just tell me how to be different in a way that makes sense.

Things change. And friends leave. And life doesn’t stop for anybody.

“I just want you to know that you’re very special… and the only reason I’m telling you is that I don’t know if anyone else ever has.”

Aunt Helen.

Please believe that things are good with me, and even when they’re not, they will be soon enough.